"The best way to spread Christmas cheer is singing loud for all to hear"

Merry Christmas!

Christmas seriously snuck up on me
Well with the exception of the obnixous music at work
Or the constant traffic of gift card purchases
But all in all, It did in indeed sneak up on me.
So last night, Christmas Eve was nice.
My aunt on my dad's side came over with her husband
My dad made a delicious dinner: Prime rib, YUM!
We all watched Deck The Halls [Cheno and Matthew Broderick! = love!]
And she gave me a gift card from Visa for 50 bucks and a drawstring backpack.
Which was pretty sweet.
Then visited Jazzy Fizzle and her family and hung out and talked and watched Hairspray and attempted to help her wrap presents.
Then went home to wrap and watched part of A Christmas Story as I wrapped, which was fun.
I love the 24 hour marathon of A Christmas Story because you always see the entire movie like 1,000 times and it's still fun.

My sister woke us at like ten of eight this morning.
My parents got me some amazing clothes from American Eagle, and a gift card to Barnes and Noble and Hilary Duff and Colbie Calliat's CDs, which rocked.
Such great gifts, they worked hard [and shopped hard]
Then just slept and watched Elf again and another round of A Christmas Story
Slept a bit off and on.
Then got ready for my grandpa and aunt's arrival.
My grandpa and aunt got me so many awesome things: Hairspray: 2 disc "Shake and Shimmy" Edition DVD gift set [with a locker], CDs from Jordin Sparks to Alicia Keys to Jonas Brothers, High School Musical 2 DVD and more.
It was great.
Dinner was great as well. [Turkey!]
Nothing like holiday dinners
Overall, and amazing Christmas.

And my aunt brought over the laptop she was giving to me for school.
I love it!
Oh what a nice day it has been.
I leave you with thoughts of sugar plums and Santa Claus:

Chestnuts roasting on an open fire
Jack Frost nipping at your nose
Yuletide carols being sung by a choir
And folks dressed up like Eskimos

Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe
Help to make the season bright
Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow
Will find it hard to sleep tonight

They know that Santa's on his way
He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh
And every mother's child is going to spy
To see if reindeer really know how to fly

And so I'm offering this simple phrase
To kids from one to ninety-two
Although its been said many times, many ways
Merry Christmas to you

They know that Santa's on his way (he's on his way)
He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh
And every mother's child is going to spy
To see if reindeer really know how to fly

And so I'm offering this simple phrase
To kids from one to ninety-two, yeah oh
Although its been said many times, many ways
Merry Christmas


----The Christmas Song

"Do you think I relish the fact that I have to act like Mary Sunshine 24/7."

Cruel Intentions is an amazing movie.
Sarah Michelle Gellar is such a BITCH, it's amazing.
And Ryan Phillipe is very charming and manuplative
And Reese Witherspoon is so innocent and pretty.
And Ugly Betty's Eric Mabius as the gay football player is great!
I never realized he was in it till last night upon a rewatching.
I love Selma Blair as the innocent girl being corrupted by Sarah Michelle Gellar.
Amazing film, if you have not see it, GO WATCH IT NOW.

Christmastime is in full swing.
20 days and counting.
People rush from store to store
People buying and buying till they max their credit cards or run out of cash.
It's a wonderful time, full of music of cheer and happiness, sung by every pop-star under the sun.
At Acme, I hear it over and over, and it keeps my spirits up.
It makes me happy we're heading into the season of joy and giving.
Not just giving from the wallet, but from the heart.
And a time for us to be thankful for what we recieve, and have recieved.
I just can't wait till I get a hold of my two disc Hairspray gift set!
Ever since my aunt showed me at Thanksgiving, I've been dying for it!
And so many of the other things to come.

Today is my brother's seventeenth birthday,
Seventeen may not seem like a milestone like thirteen or eighteen or twenty-one
But it's still important.
I bought him a card and gave him some cash and bought him the Superbad DVD.
He liked it, I was happy.

So as I sit here and the soulful sounds of the Original Broadway cast album of Hairspray seeps into my mind with its catchy tune and words: Currently doing so: "Without Love".

And a light snow falls, I feel at peace
I am about to register for classes tonight, and it is a step
A step in the right direction.
And with that, I begin a new journey.
And hopefully this journey leads to good things to come.

So I leave you with the words of another soulful tune from Hairspray: It's about searching for acceptance and looking at the big world and hoping it will be all that it appears: Symphonies, party lights and more:

So to you all: Say "Good Morning Baltimore" and "Welcome the 60's"!
And do the Madison with "The Nicest Kids In Town!"
[A few Hairspray references too many!] ;)
----------------------------------------------------------------------

TRACY
Oh, oh, oh
Woke up today
Feeling the way i always do
Oh, oh, oh
Hungry for something
That i can't eat
Then i hear that beat
That rhythm of town
Starts calling me down
It's like a message from
High above
Oh, oh, oh
Pulling me out
To the smiles and the
Streets that i love

TRACY (& ENSEMBLE)
Good morning Baltimore
Every day's like an open door
Every night is a fantasy
Every sound's like a symphony

Good morning Baltimore
And someday when i take to the floor
The world's gonna wake up and see
Baltimore and me

Oh, oh, oh
Look at my hair
What "do" can compare with mine today?
Oh, oh, oh,
I've got my hairspray and radio
I'm ready to go

The rats on the street
All dance around my feet
They seem to say
"Tracy, it's up to you"
So, oh, oh
Don't hold me back
'Cause today all my dreams will come true

Good morning Baltimore
There's the flasher who lives next door
There's the bum on his bar room stool
They wish me luck on my way to school

Good morning Baltimore
And some day when i take to the floor
The world's gonna wake up and see
Baltimore and me

I know every step
I know every song
I know there's a place where i belong
I see all those party lights shining ahead
So someone invite me
Before i drop dead!

ENSEMBLE
Before she drops dead!

TRACY (& ENSEMBLE)
So, Oh, Oh

Give me a chance
'Cause when i start to dance i'm a movie star
Oh, oh, oh
Something inside of me makes me move
When i hear that groove

My ma tells me no
But my feet tell me go!
It's like a drummer inside my heart
Oh, oh, oh
Don't make me wait
One more moment for my life to start...

ENSEMBLE
Good morning, good morning
Waiting for my life to start

TRACY (& ENSEMBLE)
I love you Baltimore
Every day's like an open door
Every night is a fantasy
Every sound's like a symphony

And i promise Baltimore
That someday when
I take to the floor
The world's gonna wake up and see
Gonna wake up and see
Baltimore and me...

ENSEMBLE
Yes, More Or Less We All Agree

TRACY
Baltimore and me...

ENSEMBLE
Someday the world
Is gonna see

TRACY
Baltimore and me!

----Good Morning Balitmore from Hairspray

"You heard what Linus was saying out there. Those early Pilgrims were thankful for what had happened to them, and we should be thankful, too."

"You heard what Linus was saying out there. Those early Pilgrims were thankful for what had happened to them, and we should be thankful, too. We should just be thankful for being together. I think that's what they mean by 'Thanksgiving,' Charlie Brown."
----Marice, A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving

Gotta love Charlie Brown and his holiday adventures.
So many great holiday themed quotes.
And this one courtesy of Marice!
For all you non-Charlie Brown/Peanuts fans, she's not the BRIGHEST bulb.
Well, Thanksgiving is upon us.
A time of turkeys, stuffing and family gatherings.
The Macy's parade on the TV
[amazing performances from Legally Blonde, Xanadu and more]
And a time to reflect on what we are thankful for.

I have so much to be thankful for:

My health.
My amazing family. [despite our semi-dysfunctional ways, I still love them and would be nowhere without them.]
My amazing friends [the best and most amazing people I have ever met]
All the fun I've had
All the role models of Broadway and screen who I admire: Who are POSITIVE role-models unlike most of the celebritys in the news today.

So yes, very much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving.
Dinner was AMAZING. I loved the sweet potato mixed with marshmellow.
And the old standards: Turkey, stuffing and brussle strouts and broccoli and cheese.
So yeah.
Good stuff.

Tomorrow is Black Friday!
My FAVORITE holiday that isn't really a holiday.
I am so exicited to go get all the bargains! =)
I'm so gonna buy myself something too!

So yes: Life is good.
Dec 8th: going to NY
hopefully the strike will be over
Not looking good, but HOPEFULLY :crosses fingers:

Let the Christmas season begin!
--------------------------------------------

City sidewalks
Busy sidewalks
Dressed in holiday style
In the air there's
A feeling of Christmas
Children laughing
People passing
Meeting smile after smile
And on every
Street corner you'll hear

Silver Bells, Silver Bells
It's Christmas time in the city
Ring-a-ling, hear them sing
Soon it will be Christmas Day


Strings of street lights
Even stoplights
Blink a bright red and green
As the shoppers rush home
With their treasures
Hear the snow crunch
See the kids bunch
This is Santa's big scene
And above all
This bustle you'll here


Silver Bells, Silver Bells
It's Christmas time in the city
Ring-a-ling, hear them sing
Soon it will be Christmas Day

Soon it will be Christmas Day
Soon it will be Christmas Day
Soon it will be Christmas Day
Soon it will be Christmas Day

----"Silver Bells" ♥.

"Instead of doodling hearts all through this. Now, there's a chip on my shoulder!"

Exactly.
GCC come Janurary. Woot.
I have to print a paper and take it to them then register in December.
I'm pretty siked.
I'm going for theater [big surprise?]
This boy is gonna be a star [hopefully]
It's all I've ever wanted:
To be onstage
And after my latest visit to NY
Where not only did I get to see Noah-Emmett in Legally Blonde.
But I realized, performing is literally the only thing I love.
Being onstage and entertaining is all I've ever wanted.
So yes, I'm going to school for what I love
Not matter what my parents say, I'm gonna do it.
I'm gonna work my ass off and be something.
Do anything and everything to make my dreams come true.
So yes, "there's a chip on my shoulder and it's big as a boulder."
And I couldn't be happier.

So the review of Legally Blonde: Cross posted from Myspace:
-------------------------------------------------------------
As you all may or may not know: I love Noah Weisberg, from the moment he walked on as Aaron during previews of Legally Blonde back in April, I was like: "He's fantastic" and when I saw he was Emmett U/S, I totally knew I had to see him as Emmett, if the planets ever aligned and allowed me to be in the right place at the right time.. yesterday was that time. And my love for him only grew after hearing "The Understudy Blues [if you haven't heard it go search for it on Google!]

I bought my student rush ticket at three o' clock after checking around noon, there were 6 left... I wasn't sure if I was going to make it, but thanks for my aunt who let me stay in the city after she left to allow me to see Noah as Emmett. I got my ticket and was pumped.

Upon entering the theater, just seeing AT THIS PERFORMANCE: The role of Emmett Forest will be played by Noah Weisberg was great.

Also out was Tracy Jai Edwards: Cara Cooper was on as Serena
And covering Noah was Rod Harrelson.

The energy around me was very supportive for Noah. The three people next to me where friends of Kate Weatherhead who had become close with Noah through her and were extremely exicited to be there for Noah. The people behind us were a family who were Christian Borle fans only to be converted to Noah fans by the end.

The show was CRAZY.

During the scene before Blood In The Water: the benches on the side where Laura Bell, Richard and Kate Shindle and others sit on did not come, so they stood: Laura Bell looked around for a moment and then plopped down on to the ground and opened her little notebook, it was VERY VERY hilarious. The cast tried to keep from laughing, but you could tell it was getting to them.

And during the scene after Blood In The Water where Emmett tells Elle her law career isn't over: Laura said "Thats no problem, except there weren't enough seats in there..."

Inserted: "The "Blood in the Water" benches mishap was fun, but my favorite was the stagehand having to walk onstage during "Positive," in order to make the classroom door move. Only the door was then, of course, moving too late, so Laura Bell had to do her 'you're making me sick' spin *around* the hole in the stage, and looked like she would have fallen over if Richard and Kate hadn't grabbed her.

And I thought they all covered so beautifully for the dropped flag during "What You Want"- no one missed a beat, it was amazing. "


Then during Chip On My Shoulder, Laura Bell spilled Red Bull onstage, and Orfeh and Laura flubbed a line or two, which was fun to watch them cover it.

Laura was pretty good, she sounded alittle sick or something, but So Much Better was the best I had heard it since previews, mind you she still strained a bit, but did it well. I really do like her, and she is very charming as Elle and has a wonderful presence.

Noah. FANTASTIC voice. He nailed Chip On My Shoulder, he did it better than Christian, I think. He hit the spot when he dances when he sings "Little Miss Woods Comma Elle" and he had the audience in the palm of his hand, it was great! He was so charming in a goofy way that mixed with Laura pretty well. I just love Noah. He did such a great job and you honestly felt like he really was heartbroken when she was leaving during "Legally Blonde" and really happy just to be with her during "Take It Like A Man."


Richard and Micheal were good as the most underwritten of the characters and Kate Shindle, my god, she hits that money note during "Legally Blonde" [Remix]" and your just like... "DAMN!" It's staggering how amazing her voice is. Orfeh and Andy are still just an amazing duo: Orfeh's voice is amazing and Andy is.. amazing. I had the butt seat. I got a nice glimpse of his butt... Be jealous. You know you are. Nikki and her jump rope, I was so scared [what with all the other mishaps] that a jump rope would break and beads with hit me in the face.

Haven is new to the company and is doing a decent job as Margot, she has potential and she's very fun to watch, watch her if you're close enough and watch her do all these corky little things like stick her tonuge out and stuff: I know Annaleigh did alot of stuff like that was just priceless. Cara was a pretty good Serena, she looked very good in her costume and sang great. Asmeret is getting better, I am starting to really enjoy her. Overall, the Greek Chorus was great.

Laura and Orfeh did the Broadway Cares pitch for the show: Signed Legally Blonde posters: 100.00
and Carols for A Cure for 20.00
I wanted the Carols for A Cure, but had very little money left.

Stage door was great:

FINALLY met Nikki and Richard, such great people.
Met Ashmet, who was very sweet, as was Haven.
Micheal was charming as always.

Noah was great: He came out and his friends were talking to him for a bit and this girl, who I guess he knew quite well, gave him a good amount of lip action, they kissed for like seemed like forever.

He got to me and I said: "So, did you poison Christian Borle?" and he smiled and said "Oh. Good lyrics, huh." and I said "Yes. I love that song, and your amazing.." and other compliments, and we talked for a bit beyond that and he told me that he loved me, which rocked.

Kate and I talked about the old Broadway.com videos and her not being the Current Miss USA, which cracked her up and she was so fun to talk to, and she said she wasn't going to pull her laptop out and hold out on one hand like everyone else had done and look like a dumbass during the mishap on stage.

Overall, I had a blast.
I missed my bus and ended up in Port Authority till 3:00am and had a blast hanging with an Conan O' Brien intern.

But, I'm so going back in December and hopefully Noah will be on again.

GO SEE NOAH WEISBERG.
...his mother thanks you.

Pictures:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v437/ClumsyDude15/LEGALLY%20BLONDE/PICT0033.jpg

[Noah and I: Yeah, we rock.]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v437/ClumsyDude15/LEGALLY%20BLONDE/PICT0039.jpg

[I love Kate Shindle]
--------------------------------------------------------------------------

So Broadway's on strike, which is CRAZY. It's so sad to see this happen.
I'm going to NY on Dec 8th and hopefully the strike will be over.
It's so so sad to see the stagehands striking: Putting most shows out of performance:
Except for Xanadu, Mary Poppins, The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee, Young Frankenstein.. and few others:

Pictures from the strike [courtesty of BroadwayWorld.com]
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------


[On strike outside "Wicked"]



[On strike outside "Spring Awakening"]



[On strike outside "The Little Mermaid"]

------------------------------------------------------------------------------


Hopefully this weekend's talks will settle things into a much better place.
:crosses fingers:

Well, Thanksgiving is less than a week and a day away.
The family is set to assemble
And eat and eat till we cannot eat anymore:
And then the annual Black Friday shopping day with Aunt Niece.
Sweet, as usual.

I leave you as always with a song:

"Back in the game
back to the trial
but I'm going back my style

Girls it's a fact
When you're attacked
Gotta respond!

Hand me my dog,
hand me my bag,
and that American Flag!

Nobody screws,
Somebody who's
Legally Blonde!

Ensemble:
Get on your feet 'cause she's Legally Blonde,
take to the street 'cause she's Legally blonde,
there's no retreat when you're Legally Blonde!
Yea!

Dont be afraid to be Legally Blonde!"

------Legally Blonde [Remix] from Legally Blonde The Musical

"I think closure's overrated. I'm more of a fan of open unrequited love."

The wise words of Seth Cohen.
God, I miss The OC.
I gotta go buy the seasons on DVD!
=)

So. I have been having an okay week.
Tomorrow, I go off to NY for a day and a half!
Well.. more like two.
But, yeah. NYC = LOVE.
It makes my life so much better
Plus, seeing Broadway shows rocks hard-core.
I got rejected by Rowan.
Oh well, GCC is where it's at.
Well, I still have Rutgers, but still.

I got the new Britney Spears CD
It's fantastic.
I love her.
The new music is so funky and fun to dance to.
I really love it.

So yeah.
Off till Friday
And NY is calling my name.
And Noah The Amazing Wesiberg is going on as Emmett in Legally Blonde on Thursday!?
Deff gonna try and go.
And of course there is the tempetation: Xanadu! Wicked! Hairspray!?
Which of them will I see?
Hmm. We shall see!


So yeah. Not much of a update.
But yeah.
More interesting stuff to come.

More Seth Cohen!:

"I think one day, pretty soon, we're all gonna have a good laugh about this. Ha ha ha. I know that day feels far off, but comedy is just tragedy plus time."

I miss you, "Cohen" =)

"My mind never stops speaking, in like, ever. In fact when I was a little boy, my mom used to say there was never a word I met that I didn't like."

See: Dan Humphrey and I are connected in that way!
Life is getting better.
Spent this past weekend with my grandpa
Which had it's fun moments: Just being around him and going out to dinner.
I love hanging out with my grandpa, but I missed hanging with people my own age.
I didn't like going to church.
All the old people are so serious about it.
The lights came on and literally they looked like God had done it.
It was so crazy.

Anyway.
I actually had a pretty decent day yesterday:
Had pizza with Ry, Mom & Dad and actually had fun.
My dad clicked OnDemand for movies and saw Fiddler On The Roof
And my dad was like "Rob, it's your movie!"
I cracked up, because it was my first musical and Topol is crazy!
=)

Life is getting better
Felony Melonie is back in my life.
She broke up with the jerk and now she wants to hang!
Yay, making up for lost time!
I missed her alot during senior year.
She was always busy with the jerk
Well, now I'm spending Halloween with her!
=)

Just bought the new Click Five CD.
It totally rocks: Mix of pop and rock.
Gotta love it.
They have such catchy tunes.
And they have a new lead singer, who rocks.
So yeah.
I shall end the blog entry in song [as usual!]:

It's been a long long time since everything was cool
I shoulda seen it coming but i guess i'm not the only fool
there's something growin on the outside
too much missin on the inside
should i waste my time and let you lead me on and on
and on and on?

"waiting for the day when i'm complete
without you i'm
doing what i can to let you be
making sure there's nothing showing on the outside
something's dying on the inside
i'm still broken but i'm free
i'll see you on the flipside

i've got a bruised up heart
but i'm still hanging out
i should take it easy but i'm still gonna get around
there's something growing on the outside
too much missing on the inside
should i waste more time when everything is done
and done and overdone"

---FlipSide by The Click Five

"Someday I'll wish upon a star. And wake up where the clouds are far behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops."

I'm holding on by a thread.
With my mother constantly telling me to use EHarmony and all those online dating sites.
Plus my freaking work load sucking majorly: Sick of working 2:30pm-11pm!
I'm just sick of the complete boredom my life has become.
I wanna go to school!
I wanna write a god damn essay! [I'd kill to write an essay!]
Hell, I'd even go to math class and pay attention!

My dad hasn't really been aiming at me recently :knock on wood:
Which is pretty great.
But my mother keeps complaining how I don't have a girlfriend.
She keeps telling I need to go on EHarmony or Match.com
For christsake, I'm 19, not 30!
For godsake, let me live my life.
It's crazy to think that my mother is saying this.
I told my friends from Acme, they were literally like "What the fuck!"
It's crazzzy.

Ugh. Ugh.
Sometimes I find myself singing "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" to myself.
Dorothy longed to escape the world she lived in.
I have to agree with that shoe-stealing farm girl who was raised in a barn [Yay, Wicked quotes!]
I need to "fly high above the clouds" to "a land I heard of once in a lullaby".

Or I find myself singing "Defying Gravity" to myself.
I find that inpower that Elphaba finds coming out sometimes.
To defy the expectations that people hold for me.
"Through accepting limits" and "Through playing someone else's game."
I'm searching for as Aqualung puts it: "Something to believe in."

Finding "Something to believe in" by trying to "Defying Gravity" and fly "Somewhere Over The Rainbow."

Someday. Hopefully.
I'll do all of that.
But for now, I'm stuck.
Dreaming of all of that.

"Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then oh why can't I?"

Exactly, why can't I?
---------------------------

"Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true"
----Somewhere Over The Rainbow, The Wizard of Oz

"We stumble into our lives
Reach for a hand to hold
Any wonder we need to find
A certain something certain

Turn out the light
And what are you left with
Open up my hands
And find out they're empty
Press my face to the ground
I've got to find a reason
Just scratching around
For something to believe in"
-----Something To Believe In", Aqualung

"Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!"
----Defying Gravity, Wicked: The Musical

"When you walk through a storm: Hold your head up hide: Don't be afraid of the dark. You'll never walk alone."

I love Carousel.
Especially that song.
So, I've decided:
I'm following my own path
My dad may not like it.
But I'm gonna do it my way.
And no one else's.
I'm reapplying to Rutgers
And applying to Rowan
For the spring semester.

Last night I visited my best buddy: Shawn
He is currently up at Rutgers: New Brunswick.
However he has since told me he dislikes it up there.
And wants to come home very badly.
He replied to my deprerssed rant before
And told me how he was envious of me
Which was a switch, because I was envious of him.
Last night, however, he wasn't miserable.
We walked about New Brunswick and talked.
It was fantastic and we got Coldstone Creamery! [Snickers/Chocolate/M&Ms = love]
And we played an intense game of Uno
And Tom Merichko and Shawn played chess, which was intense
And the three of us kept singing "Springtime for Hitler."
It was great.
Way much more brighter than the last time
When I became miserable.
So yeah, had a blast.
Apparently Shawn is trying to transfer to Rowan.
So, I decided to atleast apply for spring semester.

Life is gonna be great, if I get alittle love from fate and God.
And I get lucky and get into either: Rutgers: Camden or Rowan.
I'd die to go to school.
I need something to do.
I'm miserable without something to do other than work.
So yeah.
Looking forward to going school :crosses fingers:

So yeah, that's life as of right now.

Theme Song for Rob:
Emmett:
There's a chip on my shoulder,
And it's big as a boulder.
With the chance I've been given,
I'm gonna be driven as hell.
I'm so close I can taste it,
So I'm not gonna waste it!
Yeah, there's a chip on my shoulder,
You might wanna get one as well.

Elle:(Sung)
Yes.
I've been smiling and sweet and thoroughly beaten,
Blowing my chance.
Let's not chase him away,
Let's face him and say,
Hey punk, let's dance!
This chip on my shoulder,
Makes me smarter and bolder.
No more whining or blaming,
I am reclaiming my pride.
Grab that book and let's do this,
Instead of doodling hearts all through this.
Now, there's a chip on my shoulder!
Let's see him knock it aside.

Emmett: (Sung)
Guess you got a chip on your shoulder,
Maybe some wise man told her
With the chance we've been given
We've gotta be driven as hell!
She was something to see there,
I'm just happy I could be there.
First big test, and she aced it!
She's so close that she can taste it.
She got a chip on her shoulder!
Guess you never can tell
With little Miss Woods comma Elle!
No, you never can tell!
With little Miss Woods comma Elle.

-----Chip On My Shoulder, Legally Blonde

"Soon all y'all are gonna know much better. I am so much better. Than before."

You tell em, Elle Woods!
Despite not going to the Broadway Flea Market [I blame my Aunt for being "sick"]
And getting hurt twice in one night: A fire + Pepsi = An accident waiting to happen and Rob almost losing an eye, Thanks Adam. ;)

I'm doing "so much better than before." =)
My dad is either not caring or just given up. =)
And I'm happier than I have been in so long.
I couldn't be happier.
Life is pretty cool.
Been working alot.
Hanging out with R*CK. [Inside joke. It stands for Rob*Cathleen*Kelsey]
And I'm gonna go visit Shawn and Adam at Rutgers on Friday, which rocks.
So, yeah I am feeling "so much better than before"

I am addicted to Gossip Girl.
The TV show and the books.
And I love the new show(s), Reaper and Dirty Sexy Money.
I am loving the new TV season.
Had a converstation with a woman at Acme about how much I'm loving it.
Tonight: UGLY BETTY returns!!:


[From BroadwayWorld.com]

And the new show BIG SHOTS looks promising. So, I shall be watching.
Oh yes, life is going pretty fantasticly.
=)

And yes, I'm totally Elle Woodsy right now.
=)
------------------------------------
All of this time I've planed,
I'd be patient, and,
You would love me again.

You'd come to respect my mind,
and at last you'd find,
You could love me again.

And I have turned my whole world
upside down,
trying not to let you go...
Watching you walk away
is like a fatal blow.

WHOA!

Is that my name up on that list?
Does someone know that I exist?
Is this a mistake?
Am I even Awake?
Pinch me now to make sure...

OW!

Yes that's my name in black and white
maybe I'm doing something right
WOW! I feel so much better
Than before!

WARNER!

Sorry I've been a pest
But I guess my best
Was not working with you
But looks like I've found a cure
And I so look forward to working with you

Hey remember when we spent spring break
In the hot tub every night
We said nothing else
Could ever feel so right
Well this might!

Seeing my name up on that list
That beats the first time that we kissed
You thought I was dumb
But I think that somebody's judgement was poor
Seeing my name in black and white
It's like making love with you all night
NO WAIT!
It feels so much better
hello much better
its oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
much better
'cause I am so much better than before

Maybe she's what you prefer
But hey last year I was her
Maybe you will change your mind
But you might look up to find
I've gone on to better things
Better jobs or bigger rings
I don't have the time to cry
I'm too busy loving my name up on that list
kind of a cool ironic twist
who else can I tell?
Oh Wait where's my cell?
Mom will fall on the floor

HEY MOM!

Look at my name in black and white
your daughter's doing something right
I feel so much better

I'll be there on monday nine o'clock
and we will see who walks the walk
NO NO I CAN'T WAIT!
I will be there at eight
When they unlock the door

OH OH
I'll even dress in black at white
See I have not begun to fight
And you'll go OH much better and
OH much better
and soon all y'all know much better

I am so much better
I am so much better
I am so much better
than before!

---- So Much Better , Legally Blonde: The Musical.

"Ring out the bells again: Like we did when spring began: Wake me up when September ends."

September.
Hm. Usually means the start of school.
Not for me.
I sadly must wait till spring semester to being learning once more.
Ugh. Life is so icky, yet fun.
I miss all my friends.
But, not miserable.
I hate work
Yet, I enjoy the money
Love hanging with the people here
Yet hate not having the true blues back.


What is a townie teen to do on a Friday night?
Listen to Idina Menzel and blog:
Instead of going to his ex-high school's football game?
Thats a good plan. Not.
I wish I had a more interesting life.
I wish I was having fun right now.
But, hey. I'm content with my life.
Content to be just me.
Content in all thats been given to me
American Idol concert last week: rocked.
Danced like a complete nutcase.
Rocked out to Jordin and Blake
Ugh, damn Sanjaya: I went to buy a t-shirt during his song.
Poor Micheal Jackson must have killed himself when he heard his "Thiller"

Oh. How I long for New York.
Soon.
Possibly Sunday: Broadway on Broadway.
And then next weekend: The Broadway Flea Market! [heck yes.]
Gonna see all my lovely BroadwayWorld dears.
Having a blast and buying all that isn't nailed down.
And hopefully see a show or two.
:-)

Life can be good sometimes.
Oh well.
Right now life is Idina and blogging.
:-)

"God if you're listening would you have a message sent?
Cause I need to be a better lover, brother, and a friend.
God if you're listening would you come up with some change?
Cause I wake up every morning with a penny to my name.

Don't know much about love cause I get the same crap from every guy,
Don't know how to see the grass being greener on my side,
Don't know much about wisdom without being jaded,
Don't know how to take criticism without feeling hated,
But before I lose everything and everyone who loves me...

God if you're listening would you have a message sent?
Cause I need to be a better lover, brother, and a friend.
God if you're listening would you come up with some change?
Cause I wake up every morning with a penny to my name.

Whoa man, I'm everything I said I wouldn't be,
Standing here with nothing, will you help me?

Don't know how to tell a joke without putting my foot in my mouth,
Don't know how to be intimate if I don't have a crowd,
Don't know how to be hopeful, what if they let me down?
I don't know how to keep myself from hurting everyone..."

---Penny by Idina Menzel

"In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?"

525,600 minutes ago.
I was happy.
Blissful, gleeful.
Life seemed so limitless
Now 525,600 minutes have pasted
And I'm miserable.
Angry at myself, Trapped.
One year ago:
I was a high school senior with endless possiblities: On my first last day.
Dreams of leaving the world of this small town behind
Quit the awful job I hold at Acme Markets
For the lights and sounds of New Brunswick, Rutgers to be exact.
I'd be a theater major and my friends would there and I'd be happy.

And one year later:
I'm sitting at home:
About to go to community college with horrible people.
I am stuck at my awful job at Acme Markets: long hours of anguish.
And yesterday I went to Rutgers to visit my friends and I think I almost cried.
It was just as wonderful as it had been when I went for my audition.
Being there and realizing my life wasn't there, was a harsh reality.
A rude awakening.
Realizing my dreams didn't come true.
Realizing how I was the reason I wasn't there.
So many things I did caused me to be in the position I'm in now
I could have been there: If I just been better, better at life.
Better at school.
Better at alot of things

Better- What does that even mean?
Can someone explain that to me?
How could I have been better? How can I be?
If I was skinner or smarter: Would I be better?
Would I have gotten into Rutgers?
Would I not be so damn miserable now?
Would I be that blissfully happy guy again?
Can someone please send me a sign: Of good things to come
Of a bright future I dreamed of.
Of a world better than one I currently live in.
Can someone, anyone find me a new world of unadulterated bliss?

So far since those 525,600 minutes have past:
I've had good times, but the horrible life I live outweighs them.
Living in a house with a parent who doesn't give a shit if you live or die and one parent who desperately is searching for answers to her own problems.
With two siblings who wouldn't understand the plight of a sibling who longs for a life better than that of which he currently lives.
Too busy with football and cheerleading to notice my misery.

Not that anyone will read this, but honestly: who gives a fuck?
Who gives a fuck if I write this to allow myself a bit of relief
Relief from myself.
Relief from my misery.
Is there relief for me?
God, If there ever was a time for you to love me, please send me relief.
Send me someone to love me, to care about me.
To want to be with me and make me forget my problems.
Send them to change my whole world and brighten it.
Change me for the better and for good.

I wish I could find someone like that.
However, like everything else right now: It's hopeless.
Utterly and completely hopeless:
To find love!
To dream!
To do anything!
All of it: hopeless.
Lost, like the dreams and bright eyes of the boy I was just 525,600 minutes ago.

"As they sped past the flashing billboards and bright lights of Times Square: the brilliant lights and louds noises gave her hope."

Gotta love Gossip Girl, folks.
Great books series.
Just began it actually, which it's fantastic.

The quote from my subject is from the last chapter
Of the first book.
I'm getting book number(s): two and three today.

So, Summer has concluded.
Oh what a summer had been:
To update since my last post:

Went to NY and had a blast:
Legally Blonde and Xanadu.
fANADU and Delta-Nu love was spread.
Cheyenne was sweet and awesome
Met an annoying new "friend" ;) [Right, Diana. :) ]
And the LB cast was fun!
Birthday wishes were given
And fun was had.
The lights entranced me
I felt alive
Then we boarded the horrible bus back to reality.

Returned to more FAFSA drama
Which still continues to now.
Had some fun with friends:
Saw movies:
The Nanny Diaries: LOVED it. Oh Miss Scarlett, you are to die for.
Superbad: LOVED it. "I am McLovin." is love.
Chuck & Larry: Not so funny, okay, but yeah. Okay.

And hung at mall and such.
Had fun in hot tubs and pools.
And just chilled.

Into fall we go:
Falling leaves
Chillier temps.
And fall clothing!
And NY in fall.
Two trips soon:
Bway on Bway and Bway Flea Market [counting down the days]

and a four day stay to come in November during teacher's convetion.
Oh so much fun to be had.

As summer drifts into the movie of my life.
I think of all the fun, faces and the future to come.
And all the fun, faces and past I leave behind:
My first post- high school summer behind me.
A tough hurdle to cross, yet I crossed it.
I'm feeling much like Glinda in Wicked during "Thank Goodness" each day:
Her words ring in my mind always from that song.

I leave you now with her haunting words:

" That's why I couldn't be happier
No, I couldn't be happier
Though it is, I admit
The tiniest bit
Unlike I anticipated
But I couldn't be happier
Simply couldn't be happier
Well - not "simply":
Cause getting your dreams
It's strange, but it seems
A little - well - complicated
There's a kind of a sort of : cost
There's a couple of things get: lost
There are bridges you cross
You didn't know you crossed
Until you've crossed
And if that joy, that thrill
Doesn't thrill you like you think it will

Because happy is what happens
When all your dreams come true
Well, isn't it?
Happy is what happens
When your dreams come true!"

---- Thank Goodness from Wicked

"Is there a man in the world who suffers as I do from the gross inadequacies of the human race?"

I love The Man Who Came To Dinner.
It was a crazy show to be in.
But very funny at times.

Well, it's August.
My birth month.
Huzzah and holla all. [gotta love XANADU!]
I get to go to NY in less the 12 days! :]
Cannot wait.
I love that city!


I took my placement test for college.
Math is still not my strong suit.
So, I was like whatever, I'll take the special Math class. [again]
And I'm re-taking my Writing portion because I didn't do as well.
But, I kicked ass on Reading. [surprise, the book nerd, I am!]

I've now seen HAIRSPRAY- 4 times. [crazy. You bet!]
I love that movie.
I may see it again soon.
It's just so happy and full of joy.
And Nikki Blonsky is my new hero.
She's so darn amazing.
:]
Couldn't ask for a more perfect Tracy!

And so basically, I'm almost set for school.
I did my placement test.
Redoing Writing on the 10th.
And then schedule my classes.
Pretty darn sweet.
I just wish I wasn't going to community college.
I wish I was going away from home.
Home is so dreadful somedays.
I just wanna run off screaming "Goodbye "Hitler"!" [inside joke]

One day, I'll prove to "Hitler" [inside joke] that I'm worth something.
That I'll be somebody.
I'll have people who love me in my life. [not just my family minus "Hitler"]
And one day, I shall be on Broadway or performing in a show, sucessfully. [god, I hope so.]
And It will prove I'm worth something.
And I'll invite "Hitler" if he's still alive.
And he'll eat his words.
And he'll see the people awaiting me at the stage door.
And he'll see I wasn't lying, I'd be somebody.
One day.
One day.
I shall succeeded and those who try and hurt me, will eat their words.

These words come to mind of that day, when it SHALL happen:

"I thank you one all.
The ones who thought I'd fall
Who taught me how to fail
Who helped me to prevail.
I'm standing today.
Help find my way..."
--- Find My Way/Finale from Legally Blonde

--------------------------------------

It hurts me to see him treat you the way he does
It hurts me to see sit and cry
When I know I could be so true
If I had someone like you
It hurts me to see those tears in your eye

You love him too much, you're too blind to see
He's only playing a game
But he's never loved you
He never will
And darling, don't you know he will never change

Oh, I know he never will set you free
Because he's just that kind of guy
But if you ever tell him you're through
I'll be waiting for you
Waiting to hold you so tight
Waiting to kiss you goodnight
Yes, darling, if I had someone like you
----- It Hurts Me from All Shook Up

"I don't want to be a laundress. I want to be famous."

HAIRSPRAY.
Officially the best musical translation to screen.
I've seen it now three times.
Friends want to go, I go.
The moment Nikki Blonsky's eyes opened during GOOD MORNING BALITMORE.
My heart sang with joy.
It's fantastic.
I even have a new respect for Zac Efron!

Amanda Bynes was hilarious as Penny.
Queen Latifah has a fantastic voice and was great.
John Travolta took his spin on Edna and I really liked it.
He didnt try to emulate others, he took it and ran with it.

But, Nikki Blonsky is seriously amazing.
I love her.
I CAN HEAR THE BELLS is seriously the best musical number ever put on screen.

Now, HARRY POTTER.
After HAIRSPRAY on Friday night, we drove by Barnes and Noble.
A mad house.
A little girl while in line to get food before HAIRSPRAY
was dressed as HARRY himself.
She was seeing the movie of the 5th book to kill time.
It was odd.
Me in my HAIRSPRAY shirt and her in her POTTER wear, it was fanlove at it's best.

I've been dragging my feet with this book.
I'm only on Chapter 12.
I don't want it to end.
I keep holding off on reading to stop the end from coming.
Unlike some, I didnt read the last page.
I won't read the last page till I get there.
I feel like I'm losing a childhood friend.
Every year or two, a new HARRY POTTER adventure would sit in my lap.
I'd read it and read it at all hours of the day and night.
Page by page feeling the magic.
And now, It's all down to one 759 page book.
And it's over. The magic. done.
8 years since I first picked up on Harry Potter.
Thanks to Rosie O' Donnell for having JK Rowling on her show.
I fell in love with Harry, Ron, Herimone, Neville, etc.
And now to see it end.
It's a sad day for me.

On a much light note.
Life is better.
Working, and anticpating a trip to NY in a few weeks.
Exiciting.
And my 19th birthday is 28 days away. [as of now, 11:13pm.]
I'll be 19 on the 19th! :)

It's an odd feeling.
Graduating, college and such.
You feel old when you see little kids.
Like all the time at Acme at look at these kids and their parents.
They don't know how good they have it.
Issues are so simple when your 5, 10 etc.
Your world is so small and the biggest issue you have is:
What toy will you play with after dinner.
But, growing up also is good.
You begin to feel wiser and more a part of a bigger world.
My dad thinks I cried at graduation because I realized, I'm no longer a kid.
Not the case, I cried because it was the end of an era and an end to seeing my friends every day.
But, that's life.
"You life, you learn.
We're right, were wrong.
We're weak, were strong."-- Aly and AJ.

------------------------------------------
Oh, oh, oh
I'm all alone
My heart has grown
But it's broken, too

This morning
Life was a Baltimore fairy tale
Now i can't make bail!

My mother's in shock
My father's in hock
I much prefer link's arms
To jailhouse cells

So link, please rescue me now
'Cause i love you
And this prison smells.
Link, hear the bells!

And get ready, Baltimore
There's a bright, brand-new
Day in store
Let me out so this dream's
Unfurled
I'll eat some breakfast,
Then change the world!
And i promise Baltimore
Once i cha-cha right out of
That door
The world's gonna wake up
And see
Link's in love with me!


---- Good Morning Balitmore [Reprise] from Hairspray

"Do what you love. Fuck everything else. "

Thank you, Dwanye from Little Miss Sunshine for those immortal words.

People.
Why are they so odd.
A girl came into Acme today acting like a complete Valley girl.
It was pretty strange.
Another woman told my manager what she wanted then he called the department needed. [right in front of her] She then later asked the question: "How will they know what I want?"
I shook my head and laughed.
Me and a fellow co-worker knew where to send them next time: on a wild goose chase.

These are the days, I love work.

Got a phone call from a friend today who I haven't spoken to since graduating.
She and I talked like no time had passed.
It's so great to know I'll have people here with me in lovely NJ
While others go here and there come fall.

People I know constantly look at me funny and think I'm strange.
Think I'm weird for loving my cast recordings and Broadway.
But, for me, I could give a flying fuck.
I'm me and I do my thing.
As the wise man from my title said: "Do what you love. Fuck everything else."

Today, I went to Best Buy and bought the Legally Blonde cast recording.
And I went into line and stood behind this women and her daughter.
The daughter bought a Hannah Montana game and Alicia Keys CD. [odd combo. I thought]
I sneezed while the woman was signing the credit pad
And the women gave me the diriest look.
Why can't we all just be civil to one another, every once awhile.
It's three word: God bless you. For christ sake.

Geeze louise.
People get worse and worse.
Kids get brattier and brattier.
I notice it as people yell at their bratty children in Acme.
The kids want, want and want.
The parents can't control them.
It's crazy.
The kids around here are terrible.
Especially Weatherby.

Oh well.
These people don't effect me.
I stay in my own musical-loving world.
And as a wiseman said: "Fuck everything else."
----------------------------------------------
When I'm lonley or feeling dejected,
I play this and it never fails.
I pretend like I'm in Ireland,
with Enya and the whales.

When my telephone gets diconnected,
or I spend ev'ry night alone,
I pretend like I'm in Ireland
where the Irish bagpies drone.


In Ireland they know how to love you,
you in the race, in the misty Irish breeze.
And if your Irish boy tires of you,
you're allowed to shoot him in the knees.


Hey! You look like that poster for Ireland,
long blonde hair and that sweet sunny face.
Oh no wait, that's the postwe for Sweden,
Oh screw it I'll never see either place.

But a girl sweet as you has a future,
you have hope as each new day dawns.
Girls like you always get to see Ireland,
give my love to the leprechauns.

---- Ireland from Legally Blonde The Musical

Round six: Amber, much to your surprise: This heavyweight champion takes the prize.

Listen, I can hear the bells.

Working at my lovely job is a paradox.
One moment, it's complete and utter boredom.
Customer, scan, bag, cash/credit/debt, have a good day/night.
Then another it's hilarious and comical:
When me and my fellow co-workers are talking and joking.
Eh, what can I say for a busy Sunday morning/afternoon?

Unfournately, I didnt get to go to Broadway Barks yesterday.
God, it sucks not living closer to New York City.
I swear, after college, I'm moving to Northern New Jersey for life.
But anyway, this picture made me wish I had gone:



All together now, AWWWW!

As much as I am allergic to pet dander, I'd love to have gone.
I would love to have seen this picture being taken.
I couldn't make that, but my other two favorite Broadway events:
the Broadway On Broadway concert and The Broadway Cares Flea Market:
are MUSTS every year!
I havent missed a Bway on Bway since like 2004
And since last year's amazing experince: Broadway Cares Flea Market is a MUST!

So yes. Broadway events do indeed ROCK.
And Broadway actors are indeed the most AMAZING people ever.


HAIRSPRAY comes in 5 days [less not counting today]
I cannot wait to Welcome the 60's in a whole new way!

"Hey mama, welcome to the 60's
Oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh mama, welcome to the 60's
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Go mama, go, go, go! "
---- Welcome To The 60's from Hairspray

"Ma, it's changing out there. You'll like it. People who are different, there time's coming."

I just purchased the HAIRSPRAY movie soundtrack.
And I love it.
It's fantastic.
Nikki Blonsky is such an adorable Tracy. [and what a FAB voice!]
[sign her up, Bway producers of HAIRSPRAY!]
John Travolta is great as Edna
and the rest of the cast is fantastic.

I love the new songs:

Ladies Choice: Link's new song, it's great. I've heard before, but it's pretty great.
Zac's pretty good as Link.

The New Girl In Town: Amber's song, is fantastic. I love it, it's so 60's and the beat is so great. Brittany has a nice voice. :)

The orchesrations are refreshed and fantastic.
I love it.
I cannot wait to go see the movie. :) [July 20th it comes out, everyone!]
I got a sneak peek DVD from Circuit City with it.
It's great, you see Nikki's audition and tons more.

In the meantime, life is pretty good.
The beach was fun yesterday.
Timmy, Lauren and I broke from our group.
And went on a "obessive complusive crane game" playing spree.
It was fun.
I got major sunburn, it kinda hurts, but it's tanning. :)

It was really great to hang out with them.
We had a blast.

So other than that just enjoying my day off. :)



You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet

But i just cannot stand still
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way

'Cause you can't stop the beat

Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today

'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why

And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
---- You Can't Stop The Beat from Hairspray

I'm alive and the world shines for me today. Suddenly I'm here today!

XANADU is getting great reviews all over the place.
It's so great.

Just a few lines:

"With a complicitous wink at the audience that's never overplayed, the creatives and cast at every turn cheekily point up the irony of charging Rialto prices for recycled trash. The less-than-lavish physical aspects of Christopher Ashley's gleefully low-rent production further the point, saving most of the budget for the mirror balls that cascade from the flies during the show's eponymous closing number. The constraints of double casting, of a limited ensemble (the nine sister muses are downsized to seven) and craptastic effects are part of the joke rather than a shortcoming audiences are likely to mind.

Stepping in for co-star James Carpinello, who broke a foot during previews, Cheyenne Jackson played Sonny opposite Krakowski in the workshop. That adds to his ease in the role of the directionless pavement artist touched by drive, creativity and love when other-worldly Kyra steps out of his mural depicting "Ancient Greek arty chicks." His buff arms and waxed legs on display in tank top and cutoffs throughout, Jackson plays the soulful dumb hunk to endearing perfection." ---- Variety

"Yes, Xanadu is now on Broadway, at the Helen Hayes. Perhaps the least-expected and least-anticipated of all film-to-stage adaptations is delivering more good times (and lower risk of injury) than you could have found at a roller rink back in the day. Librettist Douglas Carter Beane, whose play The Little Dog Laughed was seen on Broadway last season, and director Christopher Ashley might have set out to make fun of the misbegotten 1980 Universal picture, but have instead succeeded in making 90 minutes worth of fun unequaled by most of New York's other recent musicals"--- Talkin Broadway

"Xanadu, the jaw-droppingly awful 1980 film that sank Olivia Newton-John's movie career yet couldn't kill roller disco, has been turned into a fast, funny little stage musical. Quite a transformation.

It may not start a new fad for leg warmers, headbands and the thump-thump sounds of the Electric Light Orchestra, but the 90-minute show, which opened Tuesday, July 10, at Broadway's Helen Hayes Theatre, cheerfully (and with camp to spare) does a bang-up job at entertainment. "--- Associate Press.

That's just a sample of the great reviews.
I couldn't be happier for Cheyenne, Kerry, and the cast!
The show is fantastic and deserves all the praise it gets! :)

So, beyond that.
Life is pretty: Eh.
Work pretty much everyday.
I miss NY, like badly.
I wish I was there right now.
Being here in crappy Jersey is icky.
It's ridiclous how much I wish I lived in NY.

Ugh.
I'm off work on Friday and Saturday.
I wish I could go to NY.
I may, if someone will go with me.

And the Summer Theater kids.
Their doing their show
While, I await the week I can go visit.
I wish I could join them
I wish alot of things, actually.

Oh well. I keep wishing on a star, and maybe my wish will come true.



YAY! Cheyenne! :)

Why do I say
Don't walk away
You'll be the way you were before
When you don't want me anymore

Don't turn around
Don't ever leave
A lonely room where empty days
Are gathering to meet me when you're gone, gone
How in the world will I go on

Don't walk away)
All you gotta do is stay
(Don't walk away)
All you gotta do is stay
(Don't walk away)

Don't walk away (don't walk away),
Don't say goodbye (don't say goodbye)
Don't turn around (don't turn around),
Don't let it die (don't let it die)
When shadows fall (when shadows fall),
When day is done (when day is done)
All through the night (all through the night),
All of my life (all of my life)
Don't walk away

Is it a dream,
When will it end
When everything we've ever known
Has ended and I'm all alone
----- Don't Walk Away from Xanadu

Find your XANADU!.

XANADU on Broadway--- SERIOUSLY

I went TWICE on 7-7-07.
I loved it that much.
Be it because of it being absloutely hilarious
Be it because my favorite actor/friend Cheyenne Jackson is in it?
Who cares, it was absloutely great, amazing, fantastic.

Review: [also includes my visit to TARZAN, and meeting of the TEAM TARZAN children]

I got to the rush before noon and was told to come back at noon. I went to lunch then ran from lunch [leaving my aunt at Junior's] and bought our tickets: Orchestra: Row O and P: Seats 104. It is a really small theater, I knew that, but damn it was REALLY small. I sat up against the box for the light and microphone tech sits. It was really cool how Cheyenne just comes on stage and begins the show in such a non-flash way. What can I say about Cheyenne, I love the man. He has an amazing voice, is a fantastic actor, and looks so god damn sexy in 80's clothes. The whole time during the show I had to contain my exicitment of seeing him in such tight clothing. Kerry Butler was hilarious as Kira/Clio. She and her "Australian accent" were great. She skated around very well and was so charming. She and Cheyenne had such great chemistry especially during "Suddenly". The fellow muses: Curtis Holbrook [damn that man can dance! "I can dance now, Ma!" [old ASU line], but damn Ma, he can dance!]. Anika Larsen [very pretty and such a fantastic accent as the Godness towards the end: "Maggie Smith!" :) ]. Andre Ward [That horse costume was HILARIOUS! I almost fell out of my chair. My sides hurt for like 10 minutes after that and "Bitch, I don't know your life". Oh, so great!]. Patti Murin was on for Kenita Miller and she was so great as well, very funny and talented. Mary Testa and Jackie Hoffman were a riot, they stole every scene they were in. I loved them! Mary's voice is amazing and Jackie's comedy is just hilarious. At one point she said: "I'm I the only one who gets it" and she looked at the people and stage and went up to this old lady went "You get it, don't you sweetheart!" Tony Roberts was pretty fantastic, his voice is really good, the role is very weird, like it's not the best, but he does alot with it. And Marty Thomas as the skater was great! He looked so sexy in that skin-tight outfit. The audience ate this show up, the people knew the songs, clapped along and cheered when a song became or something from the film came up. I stage doored after and Cheyenne came out and when he saw he said "Oh my god, your here!" and hugged me. [I wanted to die with joy!]. And he and I talked for awhile and I gave him a card to wish him a Happy Birthday and Opening Night! [they fall in the same week!]. And he was so gracious. I put the picture of us with our matching Roustabout shirts and he saw it and said: "You got taller". I also met Kerry, Mary, Curtis [told him how much I missed All Shook Up, and he said he missed it too.], Tony and Jackie.

After XANADU, I went to attempt to get rush tickets for TARZAN's night performance, only to be greeted by kiddies who called themselves "TEAM TARZAN" awaiting in the line. I saw the line had several people in it and went to the box office and asked how many tickets they would give out and was told 20. I spread the word to these girls behind me who had said before they sold what they had left. Another girl went in and was told 20 is 20. I was bummed [and a BUMMER I shall be!] [sorry, XANADU couldn't resist!]. So, I stage doored and saw Jenn and spoke to her and congrulated her on getting married. Timothy Jerome came out wearing a button that said BIGG JENN FANN. And I was so happy to see it, I asked where he got and told me he made it in honor of Jenn being back for the last four shows. Everyone was gracious and signed and took pictures etc.

So, after attempting to get tickets to MARY POPPINS, LEGALLY BLONDE. I went back to XANADU and got a stage seat for the evening performance. I was so exicited to sit on stage. When I got to the theater I noticed the sign near the box office said "THIS PERFOMANCE is SOLD OUT!" [which is very good for the show!]. The show was just so much fun on stage. The usher sat next to me and we talked about the show, he told me he was there the day James got hurt, but didn't see it happen. The onstage people during this show had some much fun, especially these guys on the right. They loved every moment. It was so cool to have an actor come rushing by you. Cheyenne was literally just inches from me. I sat on the left, and most of Suddnely happened within feet of me. A couple sat infront of me and Anika, Andre and Patti hit on the guy, it was great. Mary scarred these older people during STRANGE MAGIC. Such a great day. I went to the stage door after, Cheyenne told me he loved my card and it was hanging up. I was very pleased. I am totally in love with XANADU, it's such a great show and the music is fantastic! [I want the cast recording now, featuring Cheyenne!] i forgot to mention, During the evening performance during the business meeting scene, Tony's mic went out and he kept talking Cheyenne went rolling by and off stage saying his line about a roller disco then rolled back on with a handmic and said "And this is for you" And Tony was like "You really think I need this." The audience went nuts, I laughed very hard.

[taken from BroadwayWorld, because it was a hit there!]

Pictures from XANADU:



[Me outside XANADU at the Helen Hayes Theater!]


[Cheyenne & I]


[Kerry & I]


Jackie & I



Curtis & I


Mary & I

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Pictures from TARZAN stage door:


Jenn & I.


Josh & I


Chester & I

This is America, you gotta think big to be big.

Yes, Rosie, raise those eyesbrows.
Because I feel the same way.
Bored.

Summer 2007 has been. kinda boring.
Grad parties have rocked!
Havent been to NY yet. [soon!]
And havent been to the beach [soon!]

All good things are coming up soon.
The Fray/OK GO concert rocked.
It was fantastic!
The Fray rocked hard core: very light-happy though [felt blind at points]
OK GO was so awesome and they were so energetic. [love them!]
And I met Mae [another opening band] who was great!

Yep.
AMERICAN IDOL is coming to Philly.
And I think I may audition. :)
Isn't that kinda cool!? :)

So, yeah.
Paris Hilton was released from jail, today.
Thats interesting.
She's entertaining, yet annoying at the same time.

Yeah.



Okay, Rosie, I'll wrap it up!

Hopefully soon, I'll have more fun things to report!

PEACE OUT!
-------------------------------------------------------

Tack back the books and pack up the clothes
Clear out the room and drop off the key
Leave with what's left of my dignity
Get in the car, and just go.

Chalk it all up to experience,
They said i failed but i disagree
Who could say then where my path would lead?
Well now i know

Back to the sun,
back to the shore
Back to what i was before
Back where i'm known
Back in my own very small car
Laugh with my friends when i arrive
We'll drop the top and just drive.
That's fine with me,
just let me be
Legally blonde.

----- Legally Blonde from Legally Blonde The Musical

These memories are playing like a film without sound. And I keep thinking of the night in June.

Those are the images
The images of the beginning of this fantastic year
And the final image of this fantastic year.
I graudated.
Yesterday at about 8:30ish, I became an alumni of Kingsway.
No longer a student.
I sat in my seat
and during the ceremony I looked around
I looked at the faces of my fellow classmates
Some of them good and great friends
Others well known people
Others people I didn't do very well.
But, I knew that this was the last time
The last time we'd all be together
We'd all be one united group: The class of 2007.

Recieving my diploma.
It was an odd feeling.
It was happy, yet sad.
As was the whole situation.
Then I flipped the tassles sides and cheered with my class
"It's all over! It's all over. 07. 07. It's all over!" we cheered
Little did we know how true our words would ring true in moments
It was really all over.
No more Kingsway.
No more classes.
No more teachers we've known for awhile
No more friends we'd made
No more pep rallies
No more assemblies/grade level meetings.

As the song The Prayer by Andrea Bochelli and Celine Dion from Quest from Camelot played.
I listened to the words for the first time.
I hadn't listened through all those crazy rehersals.
The words hit close to me.
I walked down my row to exit and ran into our principal at the end.
He said "Your crying, no need to cry."
But there was a reason to cry.
I wouldn't see some of these people again
I'd never have HSPA Math with Melonie and Allen
or Honors English with Billy and Lauren Kurek
or Homeroom with Jake and John.
or walk around Gym singing showtunes with Lauren.
or anything.
The high school experience was sincerely over.

I bawled my eyes out.
I walked around in a daze.
Walking from person to person: Pats on the back, handshakes, hugs, pictures.
I finally saw Ashley and I broke down.
We hugged and cried together.
I couldn't look her in the face.
My gulping tears and struggle to calm myself
And her tears and struggle to compose herself were the only sounds.
We finally parted and took a picture.
Then it was time to face the family.
I cried more and more.
I looked around on my way to see my family.
Several people I never thought would cry: were bawling.
I knew then, this was a time to cry.
Pictures were taken.
Smiles and tears.
Hugs and handshakes.
But, as I looked back as I exited the field
At the empty chairs, the chairs we'd sat at every reherasal.
They looked so lonely.
I remembered what Mr. Coleman said at Freshmen orientation
Then repeated during the ceremony:

"Close your eyes and imagine it's four years from now
And you're graduating.
Now open your eyes.
We'll. you're here."

It's true.
High school went like a blink.
A quick flutter of the eyes and four years swooped through.
As I sit reflecting on all this and listening to Vitamin C coo a lullaby of graduating.
I think along with the lyrics to the song:
"That it's not goodbye, but a time to fly"

And it's true.
This is not a goodbye.
But a time to fly.
To fly onto bigger things.
But that we'll still be as Vitamin C says "friends forever."
-------------------------------------------------------------
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And there was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
From whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
From whatever
We will still be, friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep,
I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
From whatever
We will still be, friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
From whatever
We will still be, friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
From whatever
We will still be, friends forever

------ Graduation [Friends Forever] by Vitamin C

We claimed the brightest star. And we, we came so far. And know that we showed them all. And no they won’t forget.

24 hours.
1,440.00 minutes.
Graduation.
The end of four amazing years.
Four unforgettable years.
Years I wouldn't trade for anything.
Memories a plenty.
Memories that are worth more to me than anything.
It hasn't all hit me at once yet.
As we did these ridiclous practices,
It didnt hit me yet.
It wasn't all the amazing statements written in my yearbook.
But, when I got my cap and gown
And I came home and tried it on.
I looked in the mirror and couldn't believe it.
I am graduating high school in 24 hours.

It's like freshmen year,
I believed that these years would be slow
But, in a blink, I was a junior and the seniors were passing the flag to us.
I think I've grown in these four years
I met amazing people and have had such connections with them.
Had amazing memories that will never fade.

I'm gonna end this entry before I completely become a wreck.

-----------------------------------------------------------------
These years have passed us by so fast
It seems like we never got the chance
To realize how good life really was
And let the moment last
And it feels like it was only yesterday
When we walked into this place
And said I can't wait till I get out of here
And now as we walk down this aisle
With four years all rolled up in a scroll, you can't help but think
Hey, Where did the time go

These are the days of your life
And don't let them pass you by
Cause you never know when you might take your last breath
And so take a deep one tonight

Good friends we had along the way
And good friends that didn't make it to where we stand today
But we all know that they're looking down on us
And even though their lives were cut short
We still remember the little thing that made us laugh about them
And do you remember when and where did you meet them?

We are all one and the same
We are lovers, and brothers, and sisters
And most of all friends
Hold on to your memories
Hold on to those little things
And I hope you receive as much as you get
Cause when you die they're the only things
That you can take to your grave

And as we approach this final day
Where we all will go our separate ways
So go hug and kiss your friends
And say goodbye to them

---- The Graduation Song by Dave Matthews Band

*the Quote from the top is from Carrie Underwood's Whenever You Remember, which is an amazing and beautiful song.*

Whatever comes our way, whatever battle we have raging inside us, we always have a choice. It's the choices that make us who we are.

"June is busting out all over!"

Indeed, it is the month of "June, June June! "
Only a few days [12 with weekends; 9 without.] till Graduation.
I did some looking around the rooms of my classes the other day.
So many bright futures and people going to this college and this university.
But, the reality is. Choices are as my quote says. "What make us."

My choice to do a two year-college then transfer to Rutgers.
This choice could truly be an fantastic move: Saving money.
But, yet, I feel like it's also sad,
Because I'd love to be starting in the fall with Shawn, Joe, Pat, Bekah.. etc.
But. My life through me a curveball.
And I'm stuck in good ol' South Jersey till 2009.
Yeah. I know. Sounds sucky.

But while it isn't as glamarous.
Or fun
as going straight to a four year school.
I'm actually kinda happy I'm not.
I feel like.
I'm not fully ready.
It's strange.
Because. I feel like I'm destined to grow.
Grow in these two years
From this point.
And begin a new.

So, yes. Graduation.
The conclusion of four amazing years.
Only a matter of less than two weeks away.
But here's to partying like a rock star till the end.


Donkey: [to Puss-in-Boots] "I'm sorry, the position of annoying talking animal has already been filled. "
---- Shrek 2.

You're Cole Porter in panties. Of course, having said that, Cole Porter probably did wear panties.

School year: 2006-2007.
Senior year.
wrapping up.
slowing down.
coming to a close.
Less than 3 weeks.
Exicited? Mhmm.
Scared? Yeah.
Sad? You bet your bottom dollar.

Its gonna be a great three weeks.
Exams begin June 6th! [not exicting, but yeah]
Then once exams are done: Grad practice till the end.
And of course: Senior picnic: June 12th.
And Graduation is June 14th.

Hard to believe.
June 13th: The year: 2003.
I was graduating 8th grade.
All those years ahead of me.
And now. Just weeks left in my senior year.
All the memories from these years
Come rushing back.

Every musical.
Every reherasal.
Ever choir concert
Ever choir class.
Every funny moment in a class.
It's all coming back to me.

These last weeks will be a bitter-sweet symphony.
It's gonna be an adventure.
Summer: will be amazing.
I'm getting into shape!
Indeed, this lazy fat cat needs to be slim and sexy.
And of course: Doing Atlantic City and New York
Painting the towns red.

Tomorrow: The Senior Awards Banaquet.
Nothing will beat The Performing Arts Awards.
Roasted by Erickson and Dalton.
"Mr. Wonderful with heart" and that damn "unidentified unflying object"

Loved it.
Teary eyed.
bitter-sweet.

Oh, 2007 seniors.
here we go.
on our grand journey onward.
Kiss today goodbye
Here's to tomorrow.


"All of you people, there is a big world out there... bigger than prom, bigger than high school and it won't matter if you were the prom queen, the quarterback of the football team, or the biggest nerd in school. Find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it. "
--- Never Been Kissed.

"Hello, much better. I am so much better than before."

Well.
Senior Trip was amazing.
I had an amazing time.
I went to every park [except Typhoon Lagoon]
And rode so many rides
And made so many memories.
Hung out with Lauren, Kevin, John Rice, Caitlin, Amanda, Ashley, Billy. etc.
It was such an amazing experience.
Fantasmic and Illumnations were such great shows.
Splash Mountain and Space Mountain
RockNRoller Coaster and Tower of Terror
Mickey's Philharmagic and Test Track
Dinosaur and Exbhition Everest
were just some of the many highlights.
The trip was simply amazing.
Moments and memories, I shall never forget.

Pictures from Senior Trip: http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v437/ClumsyDude15/SENIOR%20TRIP/

Before Senior Trip, I went to see Legally Blonde The Musical.
It was really amazing.
Laura Bell Bundy who plays Elle, was fantastic, amazing.
Christian Borle who plays Emmett was fantastic as well.
And Orfeh who plays Paulette was simply fantastic as well.
They all have been nominated for TONYS today, congrats!
For more on Legally Blonde:
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=10154801&blogID=256241230&MyToken=684bf89c-2af3-4ecb-9cb4-2d8316c7ec83


Prom was Friday
And it was fantastic. simply smashing
I went with my friend, Lindsay
We had a blast--- We'll I did.
I danced with Lindsay, Ashley and Caitlin and Amanda.
It was fantastic.
I danced like a whore! :-p.
But, simply an amazing night.
Music was pretty good.
Food was good.
But, the memories were simply unforgettable...
And the weekend,
I went down the shore with
Jason, Jeff, and Kate.
I basically love Kate.
She's flipping awesome, she is Jason's "ex"
He is jerky, but she's flippin sweet.

Prom pictures:
http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v437/ClumsyDude15/PROM%202007/

And finally finished my senior paper.
Thank goodness.
I was extremely sick of that crap. :-)

thats basically it, up to now.
Senior year is winding down.
It's really gonna be hard to bid adios
To Kingsway in less than a month.
I'm going to Gloucester County
So, Kingsway kids shall be present.
And Lauren and everyone are closeby: 10 to 15 mins.
Kevin is the furthest. Kentucky.
I'm hoping. And wishing.
As life changes, these people.
These fantastic people.
Will not evaporate from my life.
I love them all dearly.


Tomorrow is the Performing Arts Awards.
I'm literally gonna break down.
It's gonna be a mix-bag of emotions:
Joy of remembering the great moments in theater
Yet, sadness, because these are my last theater moments at Kingsway.

But, "I don't do sadness."

"Aweful sweet to be a little butterfly.
Just wingin' over things
And nothing deep inside.
Nothing goin', goin' wild in you, you know.
You're slowing by the riverside,
Or floatin' high and blue.

Or may be cool to be a little summer wind
Like once through everything
And then away again.
With the taste of dust in your mouth all day
But no need to know.
Like sadness, you just sail away.

'Cuz you know I don't do sadness,
Not even a little bit.
Just don't need it in my life.
Don't want any part of it.
I don't do sadness.
Hey, I've done my time
Lookin' back on it all.
Man, it blows my mind.
I don't do sadness,
So been there.
Don't do sadness,
Just don't care. "

---- I Don't Do Sadness, Spring Awakening.

"Hey dad look at me. I'm sorry. I can't be perfect."

Why do I always feel like I'm not good enough.
Completely not what you want in a son.
Father, why do you turn from me?
Am I that shameful.

Maturity. I lack.
I need to grow up, you claim.
I'm trying, but. I feel like I'm changing.
These last few months will change me.
You'll see. I'll be "so much better than before"

I feel like a complete outcast
In my own family.
I don't feel like anyone really loves me.
Except my mother.
I know she loves me.
My brother and sister hate me.
I hate them, or atleast I claim I do.
I just want "the Brady Bunch" or "The Patridge Family."
"Gotta problem, son, Let's solve in 22 mins or less!"
Yeah right. How easy life would be
And yet how dull.
My patrichal problems have effected me since an early age.

I blame all my problems on my relationship with my father.
He called me an "It" to my face as a young child.
Don't get me wrong, I've had pleasant moments with the man.
But they are few and far between.
If he's not yelling at me or making light of my problems.
Its like I don't exist and I don't matter.

This summer.
Changing will occur.
I'll grow up.
Change in a way.
"I'll be the best version of me for you."

I always want to say that.
I'm looking to change my life.
I'm looking forward to a brighter future
A healthier, more successful future.
But don't get me wrong.
I'll still be goofy and the usual Rob.
Just more focused on whats at stake
And the future.

Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown. Walk on. With hope in your heart. And you'll never walk alone

Hm. Life's been boring.
Basically.
Shakespeare Fest has been fun.
I'm in Hamlet.
I play King Claudius.
set in the 1920's.
Sounds cool, doesnt it.
It's well cast.
It's well directed.
The show is May 3rd.

Went to see Carousel
at Clearview. With Sammy Jo.
Basically, I was blown away.
The leading man was amazing.
Jenna was fantastic.
Mike, Kevin, John, and Angela in the ensemble were great!
They had a REAL carousel that moved.
The show was extremely sad.
I cried twice.
Especially when John B [the lead guy] sang.

Basically thats been it.
I still miss Brigadoon.
I still see some Brig kids during school.
Can't wait till senior trip!
Florida is gonna be sweet.

Can't wait to see West Deptford's Briggg.
In a few weeks.

Oh and I'm on spring break.
Five day weekend?
Fun?
Hm.
Basically. this entry is over.



"Yesterday was not quite what it could've been
As were most of all the days before
But I swear today with every breath I'm breathing in
I'll be trying to make it so much more

Cause it seems I get so hung up on
The history of what's gone wrong
That the hope of a new day is sometimes hard to see
But I'm finally catching on to it
Yeah the past is just a conduit
And the light there at the end is where I'll be

Cause I'm on the up and up
I'm on the up and up
And I haven't given up
Given up on what
I know I'm capable of
Yeah I'm on the up and up
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
Cause I'm just trying to be
A better version of me for you
A better version of me for you"

----- Up & Up by Relient K.

"Brigadoon. Brigadoon. There my heart forever lies."

Brigadoon went fantastic
Opening night was pretty amazing.
Quiggles almost broke his nose, Cameron got caught under the curtain.
But that aside, fantastic. :-)
I got a hearty round of applause from the crowd.
For some odd reason, I'm not sure why.
Elyse and Justin wereamazing.
Monica was amazing.
Cameron & Joe were amazing.
The ensemble was great!
Opening night was such a great night!
The next day many people told me
How much they enjoyed the show.
I was pumped for show number two that night.
Due to the lovely weather however, it got cancelled. :-(

I was upset, but needed the rest
So, I slept for awhile.
Saturday night's show was DOUBLE the crowd.
Friday's crowd and Saturday's crowd
Huge, I mean, HUGE crowd.
I had to improv because I couldnt find my parchement.
I pulled it off well, apparently.
"Now that ye are reminded, ye can all go away!"


The rest of show went fantastic.
It went WAY too fast.
I held myself together for curtain call
I bawled my eyes out during the end of the show.
My last show at Kingsway.
I cried and cried all the way from backstage
To the lobby to greet the fans.
Then all the way to Shawn's for the cast party.

Only 3 days post-BRIGADOON
and I'm missing it terribly.
Ugh. Post-show blues.

I have audio of our show.
Currently listening to "Go Home With Bonnie Jean"
by the fantastic Joe Henderson and the Company.


"You and the world
We knew will glow till my life is through;
For you're part of me from this day on
.And someday if I should love, it's you
I'll be dreaming of,
For you're all I'll see from this day on.
These hurried hours were all the life we could share.
Still, I will go with not a tear, just a prayer
That when we are far apart,
You'll find something from your heart
Has gone!
Gone with me from this day on."

--- From This Day On, Brigadoon.